It dawned on me yesterday while talking things through with my guru that the suffering I have been going through the last few months has made me more connected to my creator.
No parent should see their child suffer, for me and my family the last 8 months has been a terribly painful experience that at times has felt like a never ending nightmare. To add to that I have encountered extreme volatility on the job front, with my income being sporadic to say the least.
However with all this negativity and dare I say it “suffering” I have consciously experienced and felt emotions on a very deep positive level; this is where Jung’s uniting of opposite’s plays an interesting role. By exploring my pain I have actually become more connected to its source and while the pain is still their I am able feel a deep level of acceptance at the same time.
When one is cruising through life and things are going swimmingly it is very hard to experience things on a deep level. Laughter, fun and frivolity are superficial experiences, there is nothing wrong with this, but it is very hard to grow in such an atmosphere.
On that philosophical note, I am more than happy for all the suffering to stop 🙂